My Little Birds Have Been Adopted 我的金孫鳥被領養

I miss you, my little birdies! This is the final shot before their adoption by a local couple on this June 1st.
我的金孫鳥,小台與小德二世,本月被領養.雖然才過半個月,但我已經開始很想念牠們.這是小加和小美的下一代,也是自我罹癌後首度親自撫養出生的金孫鳥.雖然內心捨不得,但新的主人是一對有愛心的夫婦,想必能給他們更美好的照顧.
我的精力和時間都有限,因此未來若有合適的領養者,小加和小美也考慮讓人收養.如此我才可能有餘力開始寫我的感恩見證集及回憶錄.

Thanks for loss and grief 為損失和哀傷感謝

This month I lost one of my love birds unexpectedly, therefore I was in deeper grief for several weeks. I thank LORD grants me the special incident and experience in my life. Let me realize how much precious time the LORD grants to us and how much love connects us. 
這個月初我突然失去我養的一隻愛情鳥,所以有好幾星期我活在深度的哀傷中.但現在我為神賜我這樣特別的事件與人生經驗而感恩.藉此我才了解先前神賜給我和愛情鳥多少珍貴的相處時光,更明白有多少的愛連繫著我們.

The LORD has comforted me in various ways. Today I buy a new bird, Little France, again to substitute the one I lost. She seems has good character and temper with yellow feather.
神已經透過很多種方式安慰了我.今天傍晚我終於再買了另一隻替代我所失去的.新的愛情鳥名叫小法,全身的羽毛是黃色的,她似乎有著好的性格和脾氣.

Only the LORD  knows how many factors and reasons lead me to feel sorry, including I do not have time to describe the detail. I just try to name a few. Firstly, I was too busy to take my birds seeing the veterinarian periodically and urgently. Secondly, I was not sure the reason he or she died. Thirdly, the new bird, Little Germany, I bought for substitution flied away in the next day during I went to attend the BSF. 
只有神知道有多少的原因和理由以致我如此的難過,包括沒有時間好好哀傷及詳述原因更令我不好受.我試著講一些:首先,我因太忙未能定期與緊急地帶小鳥看獸醫健康檢查.其次,我甚至至今仍未能確定真正的死因是生病或難產,亡鳥的性別是公或母.希望明日能進行再次的確認.再者,我前兩週剛買一隻新的鳥,小德,不到一天就飛出鳥籠逃跑了.這是在我北上參加英文查經班時發生的事.

Surprised by birds' grief – surprised by God's comfort 驚奇鳥的哀傷與神的安慰

Grief is a color of life, though people used to run away from it. What I am experiencing is God uses my grief to color my life. 

Recently I realize that even my love bird are experiencing the real grief, too. Through the specific feather of my love birds, I know they express their extra grievous emotion this way. Just as the Jewish people tore their clothes, when they grieved, including grieved for dead family.(Acts 14:14)

The Love Season VII 愛的季節 (七)

Many of the world Apple fans think to buy the iPhone 4S is an active action for commemorating the former Apple CEO Steve Jobs. Therefore, the pre-order iPhone 4S now has been reached to 500,000. To raise the love birds is also an active action for me to commemorate my cat, Jazz as well as the love of the LORD. I view to raise my pets is my enjoyable duty and I treat them as my family. 

My love birds are the adorable gifts both from the LORD and my friend. Though I said 'No' to them in the beginning. For I thought it was a hindrance to commemorate Jazz.  Recently I gradually realize some house wives do not like or allow their children to raise pets recently. Just as my sister-in-law mentioned to raise a pet is to make troubles for ourselves a few months ago. I can understand her feeling, but I do not fully agree with her. Because love is the key, it makes everything different. 

Sometimes when I am extremely busy and tired, even I do not have energy or good mood to feed them. However, my love birds always sing and praise with their passion. When I ignore the enjoyable time and relationship with my love birds, it means my life has been overbooked and I lost my family priority and balance.  I also notice if I pay less attention to my love birds, do not feed them on time, I will find one of their wing covert   
feathers or primary flight feathers on the ground. I still need to learn how to take care  and love them properly.

Waiting By Faith 憑信心等候

Waiting by faith is a lifelong lesson. I have seldom seen the little birdie, Little Taiwan, since I posted his photo last time. It excites me to open the bird room, yet I know to wait by faith is the best policy. 

憑信心等候是一生的功課.我必須承認對寵物鳥兒們的了解度有限,尤其是金孫小台.自從上次為牠拍照後幾乎就再也沒看見小台到鳥屋外活動過,這一點真是讓我心裡很納悶.甚至我想小台是否[父母化]正代替小美在孵其他的蛋. 百思不得其解時,很想打開鳥屋看個究竟.但我知道最好的選擇是憑信心等候,就像先前等候數個月後鳥蛋終於孵育出新生命小台一樣.從鳥蛋的孵化後又經過不知多久的等待,小台終於在千呼萬盼及眾人的代禱祝福聲中問世.

Though I do not often see my grand-birdie, his mother, Little May, accompany his father, Little In, in the cage everyday. This couple spends many time to teach and talk to Little Taiwan. They encouraged him by singing songs joyfully whenever Little Taiwan responded their calling and communication. I lean to know there is a need to repeatedly excite children have the motivation and courage to talk or sing eagerly by observing their behaviors.  Meanwhile, I realize how much the heavenly Father pleases us to pray, to talk and respond him and his calling. Yes, In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation. (Psalm 5:3 NIV)

自從小台誕生後,牠的母親小美天天在鳥屋外和小英一起活動.雖不見小台但看見小英小美十分恩愛,我的內心因此得了安慰.小英小美每天同心育兒,每一天都很殷勤地對小台說很多話,當小台偶有回應時他們就更熱烈地歡唱附和小台的叫聲鼓勵牠教牠說更多悅耳的鳥語. 從這對愛情鳥夫婦身上我不僅體會到愛的呼喚與教育的方式,如何從小蘊育一個良好的鳥語學習環境.原來連雛鳥都需要成鳥天天對牠說話使其有說話唱歌的勇氣與動機!!!同時我也更深了解天父喜悅聽到我們對祂禱告說話回應祂的聲音.是的,耶和華阿、早晨你必聽我的聲音．早晨我必向你陳明我的心意、並要儆醒。(詩5:3)

Are Love Birds The Troublemakers 愛情鳥搞破壞嗎?

Who Is the Troublemaker? Is Your Beloved One A Troublemaker? I have never known love birds can be the troublemakers until it had happened. 
由於無知加上缺乏養愛情鳥的經驗,幾個月下犯下不少錯誤.慢慢我發現原來愛情鳥也會搞破壞!!!這相片原是我貼在牆上的美國地圖,如您所見右上方呈現不規則狀還缺一大塊,這就是小英和小美在今年二月時的[桀]作. 

不只如此,牆壁也被牠們啄出一個小洞,浴室從彭湖帶回的貝殼吊籃也被牠們啄斷掉到地板.另外,牠們還飛到熱水器內下蛋,甚至會去啄電線很危險.最終我無法再縱容,牠們只有再次被關到小小的鳥籠中.當我要將牠們抓到鳥籠時,小英和小美自然死命抵抗逃命.這過程中牠們受到不小驚嚇,差點喘不過氣來,我懊惱加自責內心相當難過.於是下定決心,從此僅量少干擾牠們.希望牠們能充份被尊重,享有安全快樂成長的鳥權,能慢慢適應狹小空間的生活.


我會說,有時父母不夠了解自己的孩子或孩子與父母的差異時,很可能會和我有頗類似的經歷,甚至將發展自我期的天才誤認為惹禍專家呢!從我育鳥的過程中可以充份感受到,人的愛是如此的有限,主觀和自我中心.客觀而言,尖銳的鳥喙是上帝對牠們的獨特創造,是中性的,這並不是牠們的錯.愛情鳥只是本能的發揮牠們善啄的本事而已,牠們吃葵瓜子的功夫更非常人所及.可能小英和小美會認為我這位不了解牠們的主人經常帶給牠們不少麻煩,是真正搞破壞的高手呢!感謝神,所幸摸索磨合期已過,人和鳥今已兩相安相悅,也謝謝各位友人的關切與代禱.

For Birds Lovers 給愛鳥人士

If You are a bird lover, you may like to watch, listen and learn it.

The Second Chance 上帝賜下第二次的機會

上帝對我真好

第一次養愛情鳥我犯下許多無知的錯誤,包括移動鳥巢,驚動牠們所生下的蛋等等.過去這半年來天氣相當多變與惡劣,愛情鳥常在牠們的鳥屋中沒有到外面活動,這段期間對我來說還挺難受的. 時常我擔心牠們是否健康,是否活得不開心...,包括想到牠們的九顆蛋因我的無知與好奇都作廢,我有很多的自責,壓力與忍耐.

然而,上帝賜我第二次機會可以重新來過,在學習中成長並喜樂!五月我請教養鳥的店家後買來這鳥巢給愛情鳥磨牙用的.約翰英文查經班結束後,六月有一天我決定加大愛情鳥的活動空間,於是諮詢養鳥的店家後將鳥籠擴大三到四倍,感謝神,結果成效良好,終於看見我的愛情鳥再次展翅跳躍.有天早晨聽到牠們鼓動翅膀的聲音,感受到為祂們付出都是值得的!!!前天還首度看見成雙成對進進出出並且在盪鞦韆享受作愛,我知道不久牠們的新生代即將來臨,我心中十分喜悅,上帝讓我沒有遺撼!我的上帝就是對我這麼好,連這種事都看顧. 祂誠然是看顧麻雀的恩主,(想像全世界有多少驚人數量的野鳥要養活呢!),不管您曾犯下什麼錯誤,遇到多大的困難或是有什麼難以面對的過去,只要您願意來就近信靠祂,深信祂也必眷顧您!

A Personal View And Learning 個人的觀察和學習

This is my personal view and learning from my love birds:
1. God is an Artist: 上帝創造萬物如此豐富,多元與美好.愛情鳥也是上帝的傑作!有一天我學生瞥見牠們,當下立即的反應就說:好漂亮喔!是彩色的!
2. God is Love: 聖經上說我們的頭髮上帝都數過,表示上帝對人的愛是長闊高深的!對於鳥類來說,羽毛等於是牠們的頭髮(也是衣服). 我這主人看見牠們掉羽毛,好心疼.每根對我來說都是珍貴的,常常我會拾起收藏.這幫助我體會神是愛,神對人的愛.所以,即使年老髮白,甚至髮禿,上帝都愛到底.更特別的是,我們掉幾根頭髮上帝都一一加以編號,神的愛夠深情吧!
3.God Disciplines who He loves:自由和紀律是需要取得平衡和協調的. 如同經上所記神所愛的必加以管教,使他結出平安的果子就是義.我發現愛情鳥也是需要管教的!就像小孩子一樣到處製造髒亂和垃圾,完全不知道大人的標準和尺度.有時愈擔心或愈不希望牠們做的事,牠們完全不懂到處任意搞破壞.
4. God is my Redeemer:罪進入世界後上帝與人的關係就遭破壞,萬物與人之間的關係也一無倖免.我發現鳥似乎很怕人,愛情鳥已經算較易親近的品種,但也不例外.其實'小英'還算很有安全感,甚至會主動觀察關心我,但平常對人的第一反應還是是躲與藏.很像亞當夏娃犯罪後的第一反應.感謝神派耶穌成為世人的救贖主,這一切破裂的關係在十字架的救恩中都將得到復和.不但如此經上還應許將來上帝將賜下新天新地新的耶路撒冷,並且萬物都將合一!!!
5. God is my Master:上帝在我身上擁有雙重主權,祂不但是我的救主更是我生命的主宰.不過有時我卻將祂視若無賭心中無主所以目中無人不謙卑.我發現我的愛情鳥有時也會如此喧賓奪主.牠們在我家廚房和浴室生活的那一段時間,當我進出廚房浴室較久時,牠們就會發出警示聲要我離開走人.我心中覺得又好笑又好氣,雖能理解鳥在維護牠們的地域權但仍我感到很莫名其妙.此時我的心就受警誡的自問,身為上帝管家的我會不會有時也像愛情鳥一樣,將受託管理權誤認為所有權而坐到神的寶座上卻毫無知覺呢?
6. God has Chosen me: 我是被神揀選的!神在萬人中親自千挑萬選驗中我,這是多麼的激勵我.當我陷於自覺孤單或無助時,我是被神親點所揀選的這個事實深深安慰我的心.這一兩年我多次多方體會到,我在母腹時神就看見我並揀選我的屬靈事實.因為神的揀選,牠也多方褓抱保護和訓練我,以後有機會我會多分享這一點.感謝神,'小英'和'小美'也是我親自看上眼的,選上牠們沒有讓我後悔.相反的,是多一份的肯定與連結. 在眾多鳥種中我挑上這品種.我觀察牠們覺得很可愛,考慮很久雖當時心裡正為爵士的離別哀傷中,但仍親點這合群活潑聰明可愛的愛情鳥.
7.God has given me the Second chance: 我感謝神,耶穌在十架上一次完成救贖,一次獻上完全獻上,成為永世得救的根源.上帝作工是如此的有效,並不遲延. 但上帝卻對我非常有耐心,在許多事上祂經常給我第二次的機會. 我其實不是天生有耐心的那種人,所以在這一點上至今仍在接受上帝嚴格的管訓.在照顧'小英'和'小美'的過程中,我發現自己還挺能一忍再忍的再三容忍牠們這裡搞糟那裡弄壞.雖然牠們製造問題,卻沒有減損我對牠們的喜愛和接納. 但我的忍耐畢竟是有限度的,而且我也會因此煩惱. 不過換個角度看,寵物寶貝們幫助我體會天父的心,我也要說聲謝謝.
8. I need to Learn how to Raise them:當我有心照顧我的寵物時,牠們就成為我的寶貝.雖然我愛,但我的愛卻仍是自我中心式的,自私的,主觀的,甚至是盲目無知可能傷愛牠們的.我需要耐性等待殷勤學習,我需要謙卑付出樂於服事.我更需要禱告神的恩聖靈來幫助我智慧的盡上我寵物主人之責.寵物有時就像自己的小孩一樣,但沒有人天生知道如何成為盡責成熟的父母親.我在英文查經班中看見母親為子女付出與代禱,我看見身為人母的重要與掙扎.在養寵物時我也小小的體會到這樣的經驗和感受,更為我們的上帝成為我們天上的父如慈母般憐恤照顧我們的愛獻上感恩.
9. I have to take Care of myself: 英文查經班的講師幾次問大家:聖靈住在各位裡面是否感到安舒? 身體是聖靈的殿需要保養顧惜!即使是遇到不順遂的事,不要忘記聖靈是隨時的幫助者和保惠師.意思是說不要讓心裡憂愁,應當仰望聖靈笑臉的幫助.即使是小小的愛情鳥,身為主人的我也希望牠們自我照顧,活得開心和健康,不要煩惱或自殘.我聽說小鳥若感到沒人愛會有自殘的行為,就是啄光自己的羽毛,這實在使主人傷心.但願我們都不叫聖靈擔憂才好!
10. I need Communion:在破裂的群體中需要醫治需要復和需要神重建.相交共享是聖父聖子聖靈三一神的美好榜樣和聖經的教導,意思是上帝希望我們彼此相愛,愛人如己,相交共享正如祂一樣.我也是如此希望我們的愛情鳥寵物們不要分門別類, 而能相親相愛相知相惜!

Back to the Normal 回歸平靜與正常

感謝神,今天終於擺脫陰霾!感冒也好,頭痛也好,小鳥也好...一切回歸平靜與正常.今天愛情鳥再度用牠們的鳴啼聲叫我起床,讓我感到很安慰. 經過了三天牠們終於慢慢適應小空間的生活,等到了天堂就會有充足的空間.希望過去這三個月自由飛翔的日子,成為牠們一生美好的回憶.


'小英'和'小美'在鳥籠中,衣食無虞,目前暫居在我的廚房.如此可避免常常被打擾,同時最接近牠們外面的鳥類朋友們,可能會開心些.今天當我進廚房時,甚至牠們不像以前發出驚擾與敵意的警示聲.似乎已學到我才是牠們的主人,同時也願意和我一起分享生活空間.


我的寵物實在都是乖巧,聰明,敏銳又善解人意.今天'小美'甚至還第一次向我眨眼睛表示善意. 當小鳥特別注目時人是很容易察覺的,因為牠們眼睛長在兩旁,要仔細看人時需要轉頭.那樣子實在又可愛又惹人憐.一個從左看你,一個從右看你.還記得曾經有好次我忙著使用電腦做事,突然抬頭往前看見'小英'飛到廚房的門把上一直想看我在忙些什麼.難道連我養的愛情鳥也有Greek Mind嗎?小小鳥兒也會關心主人,這是上帝特別的恩寵,令我很感動.


今天我一位朋友要來拜訪我,這一陣子她一直忙著寫要發表的學術論文. 所以,雖然我的手藝不如理想,我還是想預備請她吃些營養的飯食.更何況上週二連我的學生都對我說:老師,請你要多注重營養,人要健康是需要多吃營養的東西.我的學生就是這麼愛我,還關心我的健康與飲食.我知道這一切都是因著上帝的愛和恩典.希望2010年遨翔的是健康美麗年輕又喜樂的我!看來得多花時間保養顧惜神的殿,免得講員問起聖靈是否住得安舒時,一直答不上來,愧對聖靈內住的美意和美好時光!

The End of Crazy Life 結束瘋狂的日子

詩仙李白(Li Bai, Chinese poet)亦為雀痴(Bird Lover),曾以詩易雙鷴，詩曰：
清以雙白璧，買君雙白鷴。白鷴白如錦，白雲聇容顏。照影玉潭裡，刷毛琪樹間。夜棲寒月靜，朝步落花閑。我願得此鳥，玩之坐碧山。胡公能輟贈，籠寄野人還。

如果是你會如何選擇呢?讓寵物鳥自由自在無拘無束怎樣都可以,開心的相愛與飛翔即可,還是以管理與訓練為重?最近我考慮將愛情鳥野放回森林中,但當務之急是協助牠們照顧七個鳥蛋...


本週我作了一個困難的決定和行動.週三晚上愛情鳥自由又瘋狂的日子結束了!我將'小英'和'小美' 再次放回原來的鳥籠中,希望他們善盡為鳥父母之擇好好將七個鳥蛋孵化出下一代.這麼做我心裡很難受,但我實在無法忍受牠們過度享樂而未盡鳥父母的本份!其次,他們到處下蛋也使得好好孵化下一代的任務增加很多的困難.第三個原因是發現愛情鳥開始掉毛,而且較先前掉得更多,讓我很心疼.


週四可說是最難過的一天!兩隻愛情鳥整天不太說話和唱歌,可能是失去飛翔的空間與自由很不開心.我一天好幾次窺視牠們,'小英'和'小美'只是默默相依一起卻不見牠們有絲毫要孵蛋的舉動和意願.看來我得去好好作功課並且請教專家以解決照顧與管教愛情鳥所遇到的瓶頸和困難.


多年前我心裡想,那些會為小鳥花錢的人簡直是太瘋狂了,不是嗎?當時我和Lysa TerKeurst一樣,看重自己想達成的目標和睡眠勝於關心小鳥的死活.唸博士班到北加州作研究寫論文時,因室友的貓生病了我有機會到美國的獸醫院.當時剛好看見一隻鳥被送來獸醫院就醫中,頸項上戴了一個和貓狗用一樣的防護頭套.當下我立即問了一個問題:天底下怎麼會有這種事呢?!


沒想到沒幾年以後,我自己也成了同樣的人.在毫無預備,也難以拒絕的情況下,擔任起小鳥的主人.而現在更為了愛情鳥的事,心情憂悶,不開心,搖擺掙扎並自責.簡直是太不可議!太超過!太瘋狂! 所以我現在常對人說:天下沒有不可能的事!不可能就是可能去掉不字!在神凡事都能,凡事也都可能!

Love Birds Was Exploring Together 愛情鳥一起探索新天地

After my pet Jazz had passed away that I decided to be a better master of my pet In and May. I made the toy for them last December. You can appreciate their curiousness and their tendency to exploring, cooperation and freedom. In explored the new toy first, then May played with him together.

The First Bird I have 我的第一隻鳥

I had three birds before I raise In and May. I had my first bird, Little Brother, after my godfather passed away. In other words, I took care of Little Brother for my godfather. After moving to Taipei, I brought another bird, Little Blue, for Little Brother.

From the photo you can see how much Little Blue loved Little Brother. I will put their film online soon,

After Little brother passed away, my friend brought one bird, Little Snow Blue, as his girl friend. I set them free next day, immediately they flied to the forest in front of my apartment. Yet, I could identify their special voice. Sometimes, they responded me when I called their name.

Twelve Lessons and Testimonies 十二項功課和見證

I learn lessons how to have a wonderful life from my love birds, In and May. I make a list to share you as follows:

1. Eating well 2. Sleeping well. 3.Laughing well. 4.Singing well. 5.Flying well. 6.Trusting well. 7.Loving well. 8.Speaking well. 9.Listening well. 10.Caring well. 11.Hiding well. 12.Enjoying Life well.

現在我要分享十二項從我的[小英]和[小美]鳥兒寶貝身上所學習到,如何活出生命色彩的祕訣:

1.吃得好:少量多餐,多樣穀物加新鮮綠色蔬菜,且常吃養生食品.

2.睡得好:早睡早起,規律的作息九點前睡覺絕不熬夜.

3.笑得好:每天開開心心的生活,愛笑就笑,要吃就吃,想飛就飛.

4.唱得好:不斷的唱詩讚美神,頌讚生命的可貴與美好.

5.飛得好:自由地飛翔是生命的基本權,沒有任何外力可以侷限一顆想飛的心.跳躍與飛舞是榮耀神的美妙姿態.

6.信得好:從不憂慮吃什麼穿什麼喝什麼,即使麻雀跌落神都看顧,更何況愛情鳥?牠們深信主及現在的主人會養活牠們!

7.愛得好:總是看顧同伴,總是表達共鳴或發出警示聲小心危險.大量的表達溫暖和愛意. 8.說得好:有事不悶在心裡,大量的溝通和求助.即使偶有吵架也迅速和解和原諒,絕不含怒到日落.

 9.聽得好:小鳥絕不會目中無人,視若無睹,聽若無聞,心中無主的.親耳聽聞你就會知道,牠們經常積極正面的回應對方.欣賞對方,大量的表示了解和同理,難怪感情與日俱增,新生兒不久就將來臨.

10.顧得好:開心的生養下一代,但也不會忽略主人的情緒和需要.尤其那隻特寫的[小英]經常飛到門口觀察並關心我到底在忙些什麼.

11.藏得好:一開始就找到屬於牠們隱密的天地,成天圍繞你又建立安全的界線.是進可攻退可守的藏身處,身為主人的我都需加以尊重保護.

12.活得好:你能想像一個人成天開心悠哉地喀著葵花子喝茶的畫面嗎?這就是小鳥們所示範出來的生活,讓人真想成為一隻這樣美麗的鳥